It’s been two years since I lost my mom and stepdad. One year ago I wrote this blog post. It’s pretty much how I feel today…only I’m dealing with it a little bit better. That’s kind of the overall feel of today. It still hurts just as much, but I am handling it better. I still miss them as much as I always have, but I deal a little bit better. I still have rough days, but I get through them a bit easier. I still take it day by day…which is really how life should be.
I am more thankful for my amazing husband, friends and family than I have ever been. I wish that my mom and John could be here for all the amazing things that have happened in the last two years, but that doesn’t take away how happy I am for all those things. It’s been two years, and I have tried to live my life in a way to make her proud. I will continue that for years. I am saddened that she won’t be here for so many things in my life, but I am still so crazy excited for all those things to happen. My mom loved the lyrics to “I Hope You Dance,” so I try to remember those words often.
If I live my life in a way that would make her happy…if I love my family and friends without fear, if I bring a bit of goodness to the world, if I celebrate and laugh during the good times, and cry but find strength in the bad, if I open my heart and mind, if I find beauty and joy in simplicity – if I do all these simple things that people can forget in the hustle and bustle of life, then I feel as though I have made her proud. That is what gets me through today, and every other day.
Michael and I were so lucky to have you as our mom. Love you always and miss you so much every day.